Problems

Oh my goodness, what a crazy, crazy world. I have come across something that I have never before experienced (obviously, it's something only an independent girl would deal with), nor read about, and I have absolutely no idea how to handle the situation. I think I have a client that may be falling in love with me. He has only seen me once but his reaction was a bit over the top.

On one hand it freaks me out. What if he turns into a stalker? What if he won't stop bugging me all the time, like Sam did. What if he makes things awkward? This are all really big, really important issues to deal with.

Tho he really doesn't seem the crazy type, he has been handed some crappy cards so far. He is extremely lonely, and because of it he is kind beyond belief and often gets taken advantage of. I showed him a form of affection that he has not felt in a long time. Personally I think he should see a good psychologist instead of being on the meds that he is on.

I really think that I should just send him a message explaining the situtation. But what do I say? "Hi, I think you got a bit confused. I am a hooker, you pay me for a ceartin service and I proivde it. Since that service is for me to act like your girlfriend I understand that it may get a bit confusing, but never forget that this is just pretend. It is a fantasy, I am not real, you do not know me." Right, like that would work.

last and first

My working vacation ended unpleasantly, which wasn't really different from the whole week. Really, I spent the week sitting on the beach, going to baseball games, going out to eat, and sitting at the Tiki Bar by the hotel pool drinking Margartias. I would go for walks, even when it rained, just to get away from him. I would only allow sex once a day, and during the last two days I avoided it completely. I think this will be the last time I go on a vacation. Unless it's with a guy I know and like very well, and he has to pay me like 4 times what I got paid this time. Otherwise it is not worth the frustration. I am just not a people person.

Today is the first official day of me being on my own. I have my screening accounts done, I have my advertisments up, everything is running very smoothly, now if I could just get more bookings, so far today I only have one. Then I have a dinner date with one of the other indys, and then poker at A's house.

This weekend N and I are hosting a Toga Party, can not freaking wait! I'm making the Jungle Juice, and you can bet that it will be delish!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is going to be a long week.

day 1 of paid vacation

We arrived in Florida yesterday. The plane ride was good. We chatted a bit, then he read his magazines while I watched a movi which lasted till the end of the flight. The hotel is nice, like all Marriots are, and right on the beach. We can literally see the beach from our balcony. That's where I'm sitting now typeing this. When we first got the hotel I washed up and we had our first round. We went to the movies and saw Alice in Wonderland, which was great. Then we went to a nice Italian restaurant. Great dinner conversation. He talks a lot, and does not allow to be intterupted. Came back to the hotel, cuddled and went to bed. Attempt at round 2. I slept fine, till about 6am when I started to fade in and out of sleep. At 8 something I hear him wake up and feel hands all over me. This is when my problem arised. I am not a morning person, and to be touched first thing in the morning is not necessarily something that is up my league. But work is work, I asked for another minute, did my best to reset my mind, and gave him a bj to get it over with. It worked. Now he's making me pancakes, and I'm about to go in the shower and then take a walk to the beach, hopefully by myself. Not looking forward to future mornings since he made it clear that he loves morning sex.

Fuck me, it looks like hooking is about to become my full time job. I can no longer live with my parents, the tension between my father and I has become too much. So Putting my shit into Ns spare bedroom and off to hotels my ass goes. As soon as I get back from my work trip to Florida that is.

Oh my goodness. So it seems that this whole Independent thing was a brilliant idea. I am booking appointments weeks ahead of time. Everybody so far is super supportive, and super sweet. I am getting awesome feedback on my website. Things could not be going better I don't think. The only downer is that some of the other ladies in my league got their panties in a knot about it. Too bad for them. None of the girls that have been around for a while like fresh meat, and while I may not be brand spankin new I did just change stores.